Surgery N Stuff!

A few posts back I talked about JP and our aneurysm scare. He has had headaches for 1 -1/2 years now with little or no relief. It has been frustrating for all. He went to an ENT here in Utah and the doctor told him he needed sinus surgery. He has a mass or blockage in his upper sinus, up by his forehead. So I am sitting at U of U waiting for him to come out of surgery.

With it has brought so many emotions for me. So many memories and fears. It has been so hard being away from HOME. Away from my support system.

The huge blessing in my life this week has been my kids. Yesterday during a melt down, Ryan called and got the blunt of my melt down. He listened to everything I had to say, and then gave me advise that made me tingle. He has grown into the most amazing man. It was so rewarding after so many years of raising kids to hear his words. So grown up. So mature. I love that little blond boy of mine!

Then last night I was talking to Stacy and telling her some stuff and she told me that she was teaching her MiaMaid class Sunday (girls 14-16) about family and she was talking about all the things we have done for each other through the years that have strengthened us as a family, but then she said, “ it was through the trails that we were truly strengthened. It was the hard times that drew us closer together and taught us to serve and love each other.” Again I cried. 

Some times I feel so alone and miss my peeps back home. I get pangs of homesickness. I feel angry and sad. Then I have experiences like this that remind me that the Lord truly does love me and that I have been blessed with 3 kids that are my best friends. 

I am so grateful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life. I am grateful for eternal families. I know it is my only true happiness. I know My Savior, Jesus Christ died for me so that I can return to my Father in Heaven. He knows every pain, every sadness, emptiness, grief and everything else we experience.

Last weekend both girls came and spent the weekend with us. It was a lazy fun weekend. Jp and I had been sick, so we all just kind of hung out. We spent a little time at the Home and Garden Show.

Went to lunch and then went and watched The Vow. My second time and I still loved it.  Then just hung and watched movies and worked on Project Life. It was a great weekend.

Did a photo shoot of my girls……………………………boots :}

framed one and put it in my family room….love love love!

So back to the U of U. Here I am just waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting. 

The Doc just came out and met with me. He said all went well and that it was not tumor tissue. That is good news! :} He thinks it will help his headaches. So I will continue to pray pray pray!

I am so grateful for my little family. For my friends that love and support me. So grateful for social media that I can cry out and ask for prayers. So grateful for JP and that he is ok. In pain but ok.