Diary Entry…….

If I was to make a diary entry, it would be something like this……

Dear Diary,

It has almost been 5 months since we moved to Utah. I like Utah. I am enjoying this adventure, but some days I feel so lost. So unsure of what my future is. I am to old to be starting over with a new home, neighborhood and ward. It is very difficult. I have so many life long friends in ID, and here I am, in a new area with only one NEW friend and she works at Verizon! My family is the most important thing in my life, but friends come in a real close second and boy do I miss my girly friends!

We bought a home, then un-bought it. Just didn’t feel right. Can’t let go of the past. Can’t push through to the future. The memories tug at my heart, and I seem to forget that in a few short years I will be remembering precious Utah memories. 

Miss my parents and JP’s mom. Miss my siblings and his. Miss my Ry-Guy and Syd. Miss my home. Miss my ward.

I’ll be honest. This is one of the hardest thing I have ever done, and I am grateful that my girls are here or I don’t think I could do this. They are my best friends. They are precious.

Looked for homes today. Look around all the neighborhoods and wonder if I will fit in. Feel like I am in 6th grade. Causes great anxiety! Just wanna be settled and try to dig my roots into this ZION soil.

But goggled inspirational quotes and this is what popped up.

“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.”

– Alexander Graham Bell

Thanks Alex! That’s just what I need to hear. It really is. I know that our hearts and minds are directed to what we need to hear if we have a prayer in our hearts.

We went to look at a home. It is beautiful and I love it. We talked to the home owner and she had lost her only daughter in a car accident 5 years ago. She was 5. She is now having to sell her home b/c her hubby wasn’t faithful and so she is on her own now. I had to get in the car and thank my Heavenly Father for my blessings.

My family and friends will always be my family and friends. Whether I live here or there. I am blessed to have them. I am blessed to be here in ZION and to be able to spend each precious second with my girls. I am loving Stacy’s Summer break! We are having a blast.

Life is great and I am thankful that I got a door to open. Each day is a gift. Each door we open brings us a new adventure, a new memory. But I will only have the joy I am looking for if I close the door to the past and open the door to the future.

Yes…that’s it and I need some comments. I miss you all! You make my heart sing! :}